there are times when i feel so different from most everybody i know. i keep my job as long as i can. i keep my temper as much as possible. i keep my friends to the best of my abilities. i keep old receipts of memorable items. i keep how i fix my hair for a hundred years. i keep my cell phone until it gets snatched or drenched with gravy. the long and short of it is...i keep things (or people) as long as it's humanly possible. i don't change my mind that easily.
why do i feel that sometimes being steady is to my disadvantage? why do other people seem more interesting, or adventurous, or exciting? why do i feel like i seem monotonous, boring, too damn steady? why are other people more sought after? why does no one seek me out? why am i good for the "hi's" and "hello's" and not for the "can i talk to you"?
why do i feel disadvantaged by this? isn't it supposed to be a good thing? isn't steadfastness a good thing?
why am i too concerned about this? God, i'm such a loser. why do i even wonder?
