there's just too many of them. this is not a good day. or a good week. there's just too many of them. i shouldn't...i can't....oh but i'm gonna...i don't know what to do...i don't know what to do....oh God....help me...they're too many...i don't want to be found...can't i just be tucked away at a little corner where there's only peaceful sleep and normal appetite? God, calm me down. calm me down.